#....and this is the BETTER version of that post i never finished!!!

[goodgrlguides]

A Good Girl's Guide to Getting Over Childhood Abuse

Get over yourself and recognise where you are.

It sounds harsh but get over your emotions and realise where you are and how you got there. Operating and acting on your emotions will never get you anywhere. And you have to get over that. Get out a journal and write down everything that traumatized you from start to finish and burn it up. This is to show that you recognise where you are and choose to move forward from it.

Notice their wrongs and start doing it right.

One of the root causes of people who struggle with having healthy relationships generationally is because no one tries to fix it. Something that we have to realise is that nothing is ever going to change until you take it and decide to fix it. Choose what sort of life you want to live and make the decision that you are not going to screw up every relationship because of your trauma.

Being a person who has been in quite an abusive relationship with my parents, I had to make the choice that this is not the life I want to live or have my generations live either.

Never, ever numb yourself.

From what I've learned from all the years of being emotionally and mentally abused, there's a difference between numbing yourself and simply being unbothered by their comments. Do not numb yourself, no matter how bad it is. Instead, cultivate the mentality that their perception of you is a reflection of themselves. Take pity on that instead and don't waste important time worrying about it. Numbing yourself turns you into an unfeeling person which will not better you into becoming the best version of yourself.

Take the chance to learn and better yourself.

My last post describes the perfect woman, which is what we should aim to be. This sort of woman is one that will make your abuser see that whatever they did to you was worthless. Rather than taking revenge into your own hands and ruining them with your words, make them regret it by becoming the most you can be. Using your words against them will lead to nothing at the end of it all and it makes you as bad of a person as they are, so remember, the best revenge is becoming more than they could ever be and more than what they limited you to be.

As always, it was a pleasure having you and remember: Be a good girl.

XOXO, Good Girl Guides.

[holleighgram]

Oh. Okay cool.

Your peice is wrong tho.

Hey everyone, the AI voice lines I made are for the ONE chapter of Life Longe Strangers Podfic as an experimental piece. It's fully stated and tagged as such. And 3d "renders" should actually be corrected to "render' as in one. That I posted and tagged as being "ai".

The background of the colored version is a freaking screenshot of the game I had there as a pose and clothing detail reference

Oh, my harsh, crisp lines were a trial that I decided that I didn't like because the piece is supposed to feel more emotional and less focused.

Which is why I went from the game model references to reference poses on pinterest that fel more organic.

The background was the last thing I did so of cource its only dont on one? I was just doing a different order to see what worked better. It's a blended color blocking for light and shadows.

Also! I bet you didn't know because most of your art is never quite cleaned up and finished but there are so many great background rendering turorials on YouTube. You should check them out! That's what I did. If you put some time in and practice, you might one day render something until it actually looks finished.

[falinscloaca]

this is no place of honor. nothing good is buried here. like, look at those tags, jesus fucking christ icansayithewasalsojewish there they are, i'm at fucking PEAK 2:11 in the morning brain and i got hooked on the discourse rod like two hours ago at this point? i've been rewriting the same sentence over and over again trying to come up with a way to insult most of the people on this site while excluding all the people i'd feel legit fucking terrible making feel bad (which. includes forseeably anybody reading this unless the grace of god does- AAAAAAAUGHGHGHGGG JUST PUBLISH THE FUCKING THING

yooo this post literally begins "as a trans woman" and is about "discourse", uncool fetish shit, and like. idfk if theres even word for that other thing. People That Are Not Trans Women Keep Your Mouths Shut On This. Maybe Nobody Should Reply At All Actually? i've reached paranoid moralizing stink-beast levels that i don't even really know what to logically do with like i SHOULD post something and this is like my fifth time trying but also it feels deeply unwholesome to either reject or welcome outside input.

being a a trans woman, (which is. fucking relevant because YES THIS SHIT GETS TUMLBRFIED ALONG DEMOGRAPHIC LINESSSSS I'M REWRITING A FOLLOW UP THAT MORE DIRECLTY MADE CLEAR IT WAS ABOUT TRANSMISOGYNISTIC REACTIONS TO THINGS-RANGING-FROM-COMPLETELY-INNOCUOUS-TO-FRINGE-CASE-PERVERT-SHIT-I.-JFC-I-CANT-EXPLAIN-IT-MORE-AGAIN-I'LL-COLLAPSE) one who is NOT immune to internet horny in all its forms ranging from innocuous to.... Less [private information/"backstory" expunged tldr the internet can fuck you up especially if you grow to view it as a place of refuge] and is ALSO extremely adamant that Hey I Think That People Should Face Repercussions For Publicly Saucing Up On "Gross" (don't. make me spell out the exact points at which i think the enjoyment of a particular subject can be morally justifiable we'd be here all week and we'd kill ourselves before the talk was done) Shit but ALSO also the moral phucking filosopher in me can't shake off the feeling that Even Kink Shaming For Legit "Dangerous" Shit (in. interpersonal and cultural normalization ways not "shoot your boyfriend in the pancreas" ways) Still Fucking Counts As Sexual Harassment*** and. ghahghhhh.

at least if i didn't have a moral backbone i could hang out with those smug pretentious fictional bullshit loving DOUCHEBAGS but no i guess i'd chose "foolhardy and can-have-their-sense-of-Innate-Morality-swayed-into-fascistic-tendencies yet barring those incidencees are still fundamentally deep down good" to "i have pleasured myself with uranium-27 every evening for the past three years and its everyone elses problem, radiation is a puritanical myth" (or for that matter "foolhardy and easily swayed into fascistic tendencies and pretending to be good but its mostly people getting mad at trans women for calling themselves dogs or being furries". i do not intend to equivocate The Bad Thing Thats Transmisogynist with my own fucking sad little adoptive poop house filled with people failing to actually make any progress in extricating 'that stuugh' from the contexts where its fucking dangerous but like hey we're trying and i guess thats better than worshipping the the fucking stuff)

*** just bc i call it that doesn't mean arguments can't be made as to why its necessary or for the public good bla bla bla i'm not strictly arguing against it its just. even entertaining that it might be a lesser of two evils opens up so many fucking unsanswerable questions and my feelings-of-personal-shame-and-guilt engines just start kicking in bc this shit can't even be framed as "rationally" or "concisely" as a fucking trolley problem i'm moral relativisming my way into absolutism somehow i pray for hell to be real so that the duty of judgement can be left to hands other than my own for I Too am imperfect (albeit not in a way that gets off to children, LOL, get fucked i do still have the moral highground, like not over YOU necessarily but over those *other* dipshits that neither of *us* like)

[fiepige]

Compilation of EVERY single time they changed Hobie's filter in the digital version:

Left: Theatrical release Right: Digital release

You might have to click on some of them to get a better look at Hobie, sadly I don't have a video editor that allows me to make better edits than these :')

[doomedclockworkdotmp3]

heeyyy gaaanggg

the pose and the background of the album version (left) are based on oingo boingos only a lad album art. not cause i think he has anything to do with it but just cause ive been wantin to draw that pose for like. weeks and i didnt know who to put there. so why not my latest bug man.

[candygoop]

miraaa!!! <3

greyscale version under cut !

[zylphiacrowley]

A couple extra shots that I never ended up using.

[trees-to-meet-you]

God. What if Pandora didn’t want to open the box. What if she was manipulated, her hands tied to and guided by strings she couldn’t shake off. What if when she released the horrors out into the world, Hope chose to stay with her, in the box. What if Pandora couldn’t rid herself of that guilt. What if Hope couldn’t convince her that not all was lost, and that she wasn’t responsible for the strings around her hands. That she wasn’t a monster.

What if Pandora and Hope found a way to trap everything in the box again. What if Pandora couldn’t do it. What if she didn’t want anyone else to feel the guilt she did. What if she thought that trapping the horrors in the box would just doom everyone into the same cycle. What if she felt she had to break it by bearing the suffering of everyone else. What if Hope tried to convince her that it could be better. What if she wouldn’t save herself. What if Hope had to kill Pandora for a chance to save everyone, including her. What if they both were sealed in the box. What if no one ever knew what happened to them. What if their last words to the world and to each other were “I love you.”

What if the world ending was never Pandora’s fault, but in her guilt and grief she blamed herself for it, and the Hope that voluntarily stayed by her side had to take her life to save it.

What if?

[incornarei]

RED STRIPES

JET BOOTS⁉️

[databroker]

Don't remind me // I'm minding my own damn business Don't try to find me // I'm better left alone than in this

Belated Christmas gift for @kissayoubasard <3

[skitskatdacat63]

Boy King Seb :D

[mile08]

Stealing YO Cake! 🍰

The great ninja Yuffie will be taking this! After all, it’s MY birthday, SUCKER!

Birthday present I did for @skysabri9! ^w^✨✨

Yuffie is her favorite FF7 character (Also one of my favs too x3) so I decided to draw her, added Nanaki because he's basically Yuffie's plushie ^w^💕

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[cpatchii]

idk what possessed me to draw this today im not even into dangan anymore. nostalgia + the urge to draw body horror on a wednesday morning i guess.

[compacflt]

ok. final edits coming tomorrow and i am being so fucking for real about that. they’re loaded in ao3 and everything. for now it’s just wwgattai and debriefing, i only have very minor minor edits to the other one-shots but those’ll come a little later so i can kind of stagger posting them if that makes sense.

in case ur interested in the overarching changes i’ve made, these are the themes upon which i’ve expanded, just for shits & gigs:

my surface-level top gun 1986 character analysis of tom kazansky that he is so successful in the navy because he follows rules/orders (compared to maverick, who doesn’t follow orders & stagnates in the ranks): taking that shit to the extreme. expanded on the politics of “just following orders.” he is complicit in a cycle of “just following orders” and eventually becomes the one giving the orders at the top. internalized homophobia/compulsive heterosexuality also is really another way to “just follow orders.”

in a similar vein: expanded on the idea of choice and free will. how much of ice’s life he “just lets happen to him/goes along with” vs. the things other people tell him to do vs. the things he actually chooses to want & go after. all three categories often overlap in a way that is very confusing for him.

the “long-distance” aspect of icemav’s relationship. it’s difficult enough to pull off an LDR (speaking from personal experience); it’s even harder when you’re both in denial that it’s actually happening. when you’re separated by distance, it takes a lot of effort to come home. that’s not something that just happens. you have to keep actively choosing to be with each other.

the honest truth: ice is not fighting for his rights/general acceptance, and if he were then the navy would either kick him out/his conservative subordinates wouldn’t treat him with the respect his job requires, which means that, from a realist perspective, his relationship with maverick and his naval career are absolutely incompatible with each other. he’s compromising both to have the other. he cannot openly have both. there’s a lot of tension there that was not fully resolved in previous versions of this series.

more freaking out about being old/close to retirement, which i completely neglected in the previous versions of this fic. what does it mean to retire if you’re defined by your successful career and service to your country? what does it mean to retire if you haven’t figured out your relationship with the person you might accidentally have to spend the rest of your life living with?

[marsbotz]

i loveeee making playlists this is a little known fact about me. my playlists r like my babies

[sammeez]

This started off as just muscle practice bc I saw a funny looking stock photo that reminded me of Fred and his burgers. Still struggling with side profiles, it’s the nose size and ear placement that gets me stumped x.x

Here’s a d drawing of dad Chad and his two oc kids (Xavier and Amelia), I couldn’t decide whether to cut off their feet (bc dear god are they ugly) or just keep them (bc it would look weird without them in this pose) >_>

Fred and Chad belong to @heart-hunted ^_^